Just a short bit right now.
Just heard from another collaborator that they’ve lost clients because they work with me.
Also found out this week that my license for the rights of a certain key work in the catalog is not going to be extended, so I can’t reprint it.
Happy Easter!
This is the sort of thing that I thought about putting in the LotFP discussion group over on Facebook, get the crowd all riled up, or dig for sympathy, or whatever the motivation and effect will be… but instead I put it on here because it’s not really about the game or the releases.
It’s basically just the real-world effects of thinking and believing the sorts of things I post in this place.
It’s only going to get worse. (I almost said “, I fear.” but I know it. I should place bets, when the next releases go on sale, will people freak out more? Will more collaborators disavow me? I say yes. Who wants to put up money against that? I could sure use it.)
I guess I could do things to not make it worse, but if I’m going to lie and suppress my actual thoughts and feelings in order to score a paycheck, there are far more stable avenues to do so, with no pretense to authenticity, than publishing.
This is personal, it always has been, and it can’t ever be anything else, or else what I publish can’t ever be real.
I just hope the future continues to be “beleaguered publisher,” and not “martyr for the nonsense in my head.”
I don't get it. Unless I'm exceptionally stupid, or you're MI5-level clever at keeping your evil hidden from me, the person these people hate and can't stand having any contact with is not the person I know.